So many things are running through my head. Guilt at being away for so long, anger at myself and the situation, but mostly just sadness. Pure, heavy sadness of something I've never fully experienced before. I've felt a lot of emotions lately, but sadness, just plain sadness, hasn't really been one of them.
On top of that, expect a post on Thursday. 4 years, really?
In 7 days I'll be home, where I belong right now.